? Did the first IVF, it didn’t work. It was absolutely and utterly just heartbroken, completely disappointed, upset, sad, grieving, awful, everything that I’m sure that some of you are going through right now, or have been through in the past.
? Second IVF, done 3 months later. It was literally a case of “when can I do it again?”. Whenever I was given a go ahead, I was honest straight away when my period came I was starting stimulation. And by the time my 2nd IVF failed, I was a mess, I was not dealing with the mindset stuff. I was so good at all the physical stuff, turn-up on appointments, doing the blood, injecting the hormones, having all scans, you know I was “A class” student. And here I was a hypnotherapist, coach antenatal teacher, and yet I was not doing any use of my tools myself to help me along this journey.
? When that 4th treatment failed, I absolutely hit rock bottom, I hit rock bottom with such a thought. It was devastating and I did worry about my state of mind, I isolated myself from my friends, I was creating arguments with people, I was projecting all my negative emotions out of the world hoping somewhere along the line we would have our baby. That we will get to finally have a positive pregnancy test, and yet again I decided “Yup, 3 months, 3 months I’m back doing it in 3 months” and then my husband intervened and he said “No, we’re not doing it again in 3 months, you are now going to take a step back, and you are going to actually use the tools that you know you have, get a little bit of help yourself and then we’ll look at doing it”.
That was really hard, really really hard, and I understand that probably most of you that are considering IVF treatment or maybe you are on your 3rd or 4th, I know some people who were doing 10 treatments. You’ve got to address the mind frame stuff, you’ve got to address the stress, because if you don’t, not only is your whole life affected by it and all of our relationships, your fertility is also affected by it.